Thought Of The Day

Ok I am almost in panic mode, I bleached my teeth the last two nights and they are so sensitive this morning I cab barely drink anything. For those of you who know my infatuation with Diet Coke you can see why this poses as a problem. But apparently Beck think it's hilarious because he will not stop smiling at me. All I have to do is look at him, he is like neener neener neener!
I decided I am going to give a thought of the day. Mostly because everyday I have an "ah ha" moment, as Oprah would put it, where something clicks that someone said or I thought of. So here is my thought for today, actually this is yesterday's.
So anyway recent conversations have got me thinking about the obsessiveness some of us have about being different or people stealing our ideas. I think that is so ironic I am so guilty of it I am sure. But the ironic part of it is most of the ideas we get we get from some one else. So isn't it fun we get snuffy when someone does something we did first but really most of the time we just saw someone else doing it. So I think from now we shouldn't worry and try so much to be "different" and just try to be more of ourselves. Whoever that is it's probably more different than trying to be different since that is what everyone else is trying to be. I think there is enough of "that type" out there. So I want to just focus on being who I am, doing what I like, stating how I feel and not worrying about if it's different from the next person or not. Because most of the time when we just be confident and be who we are at our core than it's pretty freaking awesome and unique. And that is when we are most happy. It's when we are trying to fit a picture that our society creates that we begin to feel unhappy and inadequate.

James Dean

As Jake puts it, he just needs a cigarette in his hand. This is my nephew Eli.. he is going to knock em dead.

Dating For Married People

I decided that going out with other couples is the married form of dating. It's like you are dating the other couple. Trying them on for size. Accessing the good with the bad. It's like trying to find the perfect match of two girl friends and two guys friends. Everything from how easy it was to set up to whether they got babysitter so whether they could speak of anything other than their kids or overall just let you get a word in edge wise. And even still, you find that perfect couple to go out with and they live an hour away, or in another state. I mean geez, why does it have to be so hard and so much like dating? You leave and each of you say to your partner, "Did you have fun, what did you think?" So then you analyze it in your head and if you did have fun with them you panic and think, did they have fun with us? What if we were lame? All the woes of dating all over again. Why can't we just find the perfect persons? The ones that match all the criteria on our lists that we made of all the things we want in potential married friends.

Well I guess until we find them, if we haven't already there are always "pseudo friends." That is what our friends refer to the friends that you hang out with cause we have no one else, or everyone else lives too far away or can't hang out.

I May Be In The Doghouse After This......

Well I haven't been husband tagged or whatever, but sorry to say I don't think I'd fill it out anyway.. too time consuming :) and slightly not my style. So I thought I'd tell you all a little about Jake because I assume the majority of you don't know him very well or have never even met him, especially those of you out of staters. So I'll tell you a little bit about him (hope he doesn't mind.) I'd post a picture but wouldn't you know we are so lame we only take pictures of our kids and so the most recent one I have is pretty outdated. I would symbolically post the Cruiser, however, it and I are in a fight and so it can't be on my blog at this present time.

He is 5'something, a hundred and something pounds, an Aquarious, brown hair, green eyes. We met through Sammy, my friend at Utah State, they went to high school together. We ran into each other at a concert in Salt Lake and I guess as they say the rest is history. Jakes likes to snowboard, mountain bike, put dents in his Landcruiser.. I MEAN go 4 wheeling in his Landcruiser. He likes snorkels on his cars (who doesn't). He has just re picked up mountain biking racing and triathalons, he is a really good swimmer, he is building a road bike so he can add that to his biking addiction. He likes to camp, hike, do anything outdoors including climb insanely high mountains like Mt. Rainier. Even though I think he just climbed it cause he liked the name and wanted to name his first son after it. He is really good at bringing me flowers, Symphony bars, and Diet Coke with or without request (his most important talent if you ask me.) He is obnoxiously funny and I say obnoxious because it's usually accurately making fun of me and I pretend that it bugs me. He is a magnificent cook, his newest creations include Pad Thai and fresh spring rolls with peanuts sauce. He contributes some pretty awesomely long eye lashes to our offspring, and hopefully some non pasty skin unlike my own. He is a very present dad and has managed to make Piper quite the daddy's little girl. He appreciates good music and can listen to the Rx Bandits more than is healthy I believe, we used to attend the spiratic concert before late night baby sitting was a problem. He is really good about putting up with me and all my high maintenance quirks like expensive makeup, jeans addiction, cleaning OCD, twelve hour get ready time, overly scented self and house, incessant talking and ranting, almost oddly close relationship with my brother and the overall confusion that is me. I think he is pretty freaking awesome which says a lot when you have married as long as we have ( 3 or 4 years I can never keep it strait.) He is probably one of the most all around intelligent people, he knows a little or a lot about everything and if he doesn't he figures it out. Oh, and I can't forget what a great housekeeper he is and how many dishes he washes and the outstanding amount of laundry he does. Ok, wait.. that would just make him too good to be true :)

Blogs Blogs Everywhere.

The blog craze is cracking me up... I go to one friend's blog and see links to other friend's blogs. It's hilarious and awesome at the same time. I just saw some of my friends I don't keep in touch with too much and it's so cool to see their kids. I stand by my theory that every one of my friends insists on having darling kids. I haven't seen one yet that isn't. But anyway it's pretty cool. I mean how cool is it that we can keep in touch and be friends without even seeing each other. I feel like I know some of these girls so well and they probably don't even like me, but I stalk their blogs anyway. Telling myself that I am their friend whether it's true or not :) I feel so special and liked when I have lots of comments too, it's like the more comments you get the more popular you are... hint hint- please make me look cool to all my friends.

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I decided I am a sedative. The second my children touch me they fall asleep. Piper was this way (still is) and Beckett is relentlessly this way. But I honestly thought how could I love anything as much as Piper, and you just do. Like they say. I think your heart grows or something. He is so dang sweet. I can get him to smile on cue, I am just going to go ahead and make myself feel good by saying he is already a mama's boy. Mmm, anyway just had to get that out there because he is asleep in my lap and so sweet and peaceful.
So I went to my grandma's house yesterday and I think her and my grandpa are so amazing. I was cleaning and my grandma is the most immaculate person I have ever known. I remember being little and loving to be at her house cause it was so clean. Well with crooked arthritis fingers it's still that way. She is so neat and organized and such a minimalist. I had a moment at her house that I just know is imprinted in my mind forever.. walking in her room and it's completely tidy and her temple dress is hanging out in front of her closet. This is funny because last week I was at my other grandma's house and I had a moment like that too, I went in her room and she has this funny thing she does she wraps her velcro hair curlers in a funky handkerchief and always has. (Handkerchieft is very odd word).Well there they were in the middle of her bed with nothing else there. Anyway just thought I'd share, I love it when you have a moment that is so bittersweet like that that you know is just imprinted. That very moment is frozen in your memory.
So what is up with the new Counting Crows song? Who cares, at least they are still making well deserved money. The lyrics are so what I picture Adam Duritz to be like.
Anyway.. Brandon-what is the Layton Thai place? I didn't know Davis County had any good eating places, besides Rooster's of course, right ladies? And go to Thai Siam or Sawadee in downtown-ish Salt Lake they are basically the same and both great.
Sharstin-email me that recipe, sounds good. Except for the sweet potatoes. They are basically my new found ENEMY. I'll leave them out, far out.
I think I don't like this new background. It's a little much. It is sort of trippy.

Ok it is actually sort of hard to keep a blog, not hard but hard to make it interesting. I thought mine would be different, guess I just fall among. So what is up with Tone Loc and company.... well had a nice weekend. Went out with Debo and Supalinds and they are fabulous. I had one of the best nights in a long time. I love them both, where have you been all my life. Not to mention the intro to the yellow curry that I too could drink. Next night we went to the sister restaurant of Thai Siam, Sawadee, and had more yellow curry :) with Jake's friends, well my friends too, but that is how I distinguish it. Had a nice little fiesta at the casa de Carroll. Too bad it was missing Mexican DIET coke. But I love my in laws as much as my own.. I love love them to death. I think I like to be with them more than they like to be with us, isn't is supposed to be the parents bothering the children? Anyhow my mother in law is one of the people I look up to most (and no she doesn't check this blog, I don't think she is electronically intelligent enough j/k). She is awesome, smart, well rounded, cooks great, sews the holes in the butt of my pants, supportive and positive and she is 50 and has a social life. She is the coolest. My in laws are the parts of a family I never had.. a sister, a Martha Stewartish mom and a dad.
Anyway I too am basically Martha Freaking Stewart. I bought a slew of things today that have never before been in the Carroll home, but are much welcome new additions cooking red wine, almond extract, a horse radish, sweet potatoes, and two spices. I love adding spices to my collection it's like my cooking ability grows every time my spice collection expands. I am also losing my mind. In twenty four hours I have discovered that I took a movie back without the movie in it, I mailed an unstamped letter and used the wrong debit card. Can we say frazzled mother??? Anyway.. peace out.