Dear Indie Lou,
You are a volcano. I love every single thing about you, however, you make me question myself in ways I didn't know exist. You test my confidence in parenting. When I am up with you in the middle of night pacing the dark house while you are shrieking, making me cry on the front porch, and driving you to Centerville over and over at 3 am out of desperation to relieve my bleeding ears and shot patience in hopes you will fall asleep, I still love you. Although my frustration toward the world suggests otherwise. I truly hope your siblings forgive you for making me so mentally fried and in turn being impatient and short with them and consistently never having free hands to play with them or relieve them of their needs. Just remember this in a year when they are both pestering you to death. You are almost 4 months old and I am so exhausted, mentally fried, scattered and physically exerted from you that you may as well be a week old. For some strange reason, though, I can't wait for you to wake up and smile at me.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
*Sigh*
Posted by Toni at 8:29 AM
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You are such an amazing mom!! I feel so sorry I wish I could help. In fact I was dead serious when I said we would take the kiddos for night. Really I mean it!! Even Indie if you wanted to leave her. Call me because I really would love to. I miss Piper I really do so PLEASE let us take them for one night. It would make me so so happy!
You. Poor. Thing.
Indie really is darling in her pictures though! :)
Ooooooh, how i know this will be my life in few months! My boys have been good sleepers for the most part and i just know i can't have 3 like it...we will see! Does she just like to be kept on the move? Have you just tried to let her sleep in the swing at night? You just go through D batteries like no other...ha ha! You probably have tried EVERYTHING...so frustrating as a mom! When your in it, you think it will never end...it will though! Hang in there! You feel SO alone sometimes though when you are in the throes of this kind of stuff. At the very least I need to come give you a crushed ice DC from chevron!
I am so sorry! I am just a stones throw away. When you feel frustrated please don't hesitate to send your kids over. I am here for you!
Hey Toni, um seriously let me take her for a night so you can get some really really good sleep and reset your batteries. Best gift anyone ever gave me with Genevieve.
Toni, I'm SO sorry! That's horrible. We would love to take the kiddies over night too, or whatever would make your life easier. :(
You could scramble her up and just eat her. She does look good enough to eat. Wish I was there. You could come listen to my horror stories with Avye. Trust me my stories would leave you running for your home & never wanting to leave it.
Oh Toni! I am so sorry! Jax was that way and I have SO much sympathy for you right now! I remember the night time drives, and many late night crying sessions (both me and Jax).Good thing we love them so much and they do give the sweetest smiles! It ends, I promise! There will be light at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully soon! Indie has the most beautiful BLUE eyes! We missed you at dinner and the reunion, hope to see you soon!
Aaarg. These darn kids. My heart goes out to you right now. Hang in there, she'll figure it out. I say "she" because I really think that sometimes there is nothing you can do (except my earplugs!). They just have to work somethings out on their own.
In general, my kiddies have been pretty good and I feel very blessed for that. But there have definitely been some weeks/months of PURE CRAZINESS. Lengthy periods of time when I wear the same barf covered jammies all week, never wash my face, only "serve" fast food for meals, and the t.v. practically burns out from overuse. It's gross.
I sincerely hope that things turn around for you one of these days.
I meant to say "buy earplugs". I'm pretty sure my brain has left the building!
HEy Toni, I am so sorry- I had no idea!! I hope things get better soon. We need to plan lots of get togethers to keep you busy, sane and distracted. Let me know if I can help!
ha! I'm laughing so hard! But I can... and I can because I understand. More than I wish I did, or could, but I do! Unfortunately I can't sit idly by and tell you how it'll be better and think to myself that you might be just a little overwhelmed with having 3 kids, because it simply isn't so. Some babies are just h.a.r.d. and no matter what you do or don't do, think or don't think, eat or don't eat, read or don't read, swaddle or don't swaddle- they are who and what they are... and Nash and Indie.... they are the same! sigh....and they are difficult at best. Allowing nothing else to get done. No attention to be shared. No arms to be empty. No patience to be left. They are draining and exhausting at best- yet I, like you, can't wait to see his cute smiling face whenever it's offered :) hang in there! And you can drive to syracuse instead of centerville anytime you like ::)
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